Fuck.

I thought we were dropping this. I really, honestly, fucking THOUGHT we were done with this SHIT. However, it looks like it's too late to turn back. Too. Fucking, Late. I tried to warn them. Do you remember me? Do you remember me trying to warn them to turn the goddamn cameras off?

It's not going to go away, Sarah.

You can't kill SLENDERMAN, Tegan!

It's a fucking PARANORMAL. MONSTER.

Okay, viewers, readers, and sick fucks getting a rise out of this. I'm going to tell you what happened. I'd rather show you the videos, but Sarah won't give me the clips. So, I'll sum up as best as I can.

Tegan is a murderer.
Jacob is gone. Jackie is dead. 
Sarah is moving.

Yeah, because she totally thinks that if she moves to the city, Slenderman can't get her. Slenderman needs trees to live in her mind. Sure. Why not? Is there any point in running?


I'm not going to run. I'm going to protect myself. The Ⓧ is my Shepherd. It is not the symbol of Slenderman. It is a symbol of protection. That is the power I am giving it. It only has power because we give it power. Now I'm reassigning its power. I think that's what my aunt was trying to do.

In conclusion: I'm burning the book. I'm putting up my symbol of protection. I'll keep you updated.

P.S. If it doesn't work, I'll see you on the other side.

I'm starting to think I won't be killed by the slenderman. I'm pretty sure Tegan will beat him to it. He's so different after what happened, even his laugh. I hate his laugh. It's fake. He only does it to scare me. I didn't used to be scared of him. Things used to be cool, but things are not cool now. He's still looking for his stupid hornets nest and mad at me about that damn box. I don't know where his fucking box is. I didn't move it. I don't deserve any of the shit he's been giving me.
I don't think anyone should be around him. Sarah can't see what he is, but I've seen it up close.

I understand that I haven't exactly explained my situation. Two years ago, my aunt Sarah disappeared. She didn't die, she just vanished. We were never close. My mom and I were told she was gone about a week after she disappeared. When we went to her house, it was covered in "circle X"s. I didn't know what they were, or why they were written all over the walls. It hasn't been until the last few months that I heard about the slenderseries. I don't know if the circles are related at all, but it gives me hope. I hope she's running. I hope she's still out there. It's better than the alternative.
Still, what gave me hope then, is terrifying me now. What will make Sarah stop?

"Cause me to hear thy loving kindness in the morning, for in Ⓧ I do trust"

If not the slenderman, what was she so afraid of?

The further Sarah's Slenderseries gets, the more uncomfortable I feel. I haven't opened this book in over a year, but lately it's all I can look at. I guess I keep looking for hope, but there's none in these pages. I wish I could make Sarah stop. I wish I could make both of them stop. I wish I could stop reading, but I can't.

While the Morning Watches portion of the book seems to be full of pleads and hope, the Night Watches seems to fall into obsession and warning.

"The Night Watches"

"I meditate on thee in the Night Watches"

"He shall gather the Lambs with His arm, and carry them to the VⓍID"

    On Thy           How 00000 in the hour of sorrow, or bereavement, or death, to have the 0000000    000000000         and 0000000 of a 0000 EVIL Ⓧ! My soul! these words tell thee of one nearer, 00000000000 still--the HELL  that [never fails] a 0000 0000000000000000000 0000000000000000000000000 0000000000 00000 000000000 000 00000 000000 00000 00000 Does a Shepherd watch 000000 over his flock? The Ⓧ is my Shepherd! 00000 000000 00000 0000 00000000 000000 00000 00000000 0000000 so It will HUNT you.

I hope it's just an obsession with Marble Hornets. Still, I can't be sure, but I wonder: does the Ⓧ have power on its own, or only because we give it power?

I don't know how many people will read this. I don't know if it'll make a difference, or if someone will come help me, or if it'll even make me feel better. I'm writing this because I think I'm going to be killed. I can't call the cops. I can't tell my parents. I can't trust my friends.
Sarah, I hope you never see this.
He is coming. The Shepherd. The Operator. It'll happen just like it did before.

This book is the only thing I have to remember my aunt after she disappeared. It's kind of funny. Her name was also Sarah.

I don't want to disappear, too.